My not so fancy outfit of the day: knitted joggers from Oysho and sweater American Vintage.
I took these pictures quickly before leaving home for a doctor’s appointment, now I sit in a cafe with my laptop. (The weather is so cold I felt dressing in something comfy.) Many of you suggested that I should get my thyroids checked, in case of Hashimoto or hypothyroidism, so that’s why the doctor’s appointment. Two years ago the results were normal, but they can change so better be sure about it.
I need to say one more time how much I appreciated your comments. I never could have imagined getting the kind of support I got from you. It’s a weird feeling, being supported and accepted by everyone who matter. Suddenly I have it, there aren’t any dark secrets anymore, and the darkness doesn’t feel so dark. A warm feeing took over me after realising this, what am I afraid of anymore? I read over one hundred experiences, stories and thoughts with depression, and I feel really grateful you felt like sharing something so personal with me. You are not alone. And you are amazing. The one thing that combined all of these stories from all around the world, is that you seem all just so amazing, kind and beautiful. ♥
Mun vähän rennompi päivän asu: neuleverkkarit Oyshosta, neule American Vintagelta.
Nappasin nämä kuvat ennen lähtöä lääkäriin. (Ilma on niin kylmä, että kummasti sitä kaipaa vain pehmeitä vaatteita.) Moni kommentoi, että kannattaisi tarkistuttaa kilpirauhasarvot Hashimodon taudin ja kilpirauhasen vajaatoiminnan varalta. Pari vuotta sitten ne olivat normaalit, mutta muutoksia voi tapahtua, joten hyvähän ne on tarkistuttaa.
Täytyy vielä kerran sanoa, miten paljon arvostan jättämiänne kommentteja viime postauksiin. En olisi osannut edes unelmoida saavani noin paljon tukea ja ymmärrystä. Outo tunne, yhtäkkiä mulla on kaikkien itselleni tärkeiden tuki. Yhtäkkiä ei olekaan niin synkkiä salaisuuksia, ja synkkä ei tunnu niin synkältä. Sellainen hyvän olon tunne valtasi mut kun tajusin tämän, eihän mun tarvitse enää pelätä mitään. Luin yli sata masennukseen liittyvää kokemusta, ajatusta ja tarinaa, joita kommentteihin, meiliini ja instagramin viesteihin jätitte. Tuntuu hienolta, että sain kuulla teiltä niinkin henkilökohtaisista asioista, kiitos siis niiden jakamisesta. Kukaan teistä ei ole yksin. ♥
PS, Anyone else’s dog’s nose changing color in wintertime? The colder the weather gets, the more pink tones Minnie has in her nose ?
PS, Vaihtaako muiden koirien nenät väriä talvisin? Mitä kylmemmäksi ilmat menee, sitä enemmän vaaleaa pinkkiä tulee Minnien nenään ?
lua says
My ramdon questions… have you ever had a root canal?
Marianna says
No I don’t remember at least… Haha why are you asking? 😀
Lua says
Just kidding… How you dont remember?
Charmaine Ng | Architecture & Lifestyle Blog says
Your lazy day outfits are my favourite. They’re casual and chic and what I’d wear daily! ❤️❤️
Charmaine Ng | Architecture & Lifestyle Blog
http://charmainenyw.com
Marianna says
Thanks so much! They are actually my favorites too, I feel most like myself in that kind of outfits 😀 ❤️
Aimee says
Marianna, I didn’t get a chance to say this in the comments of your original post, but I think it was brave and inspiring of you to be open about your truth. We are always helping others when we can be honest about our own lives, especially in your line of work where it often seems bloggers live beautiful and perfect lives. It’s so important and refreshing to hear the human being underneath the “fashion blogger,” and so important for younger girls to know the truth about appearances on the internet. Not that your life ISN’T beautiful and full of happiness and fun perks, but that we’re all human and we all go through various emotions. Not one of us feels beautiful and happy ALL the time. This fact connects us all. Thank you for your courage and honesty.
Marianna says
Thank you so much Aimee! Yes definitely. So wise words. ❤️
Rina says
Love your cozy outfit! ❤️
Marianna says
Thanks so much Rina! ❤️
La Bijoux Bella | by mia says
Always love ❤️ the comfy look … I wish you the very best for your Doctor’s appointment. ?????
??LA BIJOUX BELLA ??| By Mia | A Creative Lifestyle Blog
Marianna says
Thank you Mia. 🙂 ❤️
Rena says
But I like your comfy outfit for your lazy day!
xx from Bavaria/Germany, Rena
http://www.dressedwithsoul.com
Marianna says
Thank you Rena!
Dixi Wonderland says
I used to cut myself for over 4 years when I was younger. I took drugs and when it was at it worst I didn´t want to live. I manged to stop hurting myself but the anxiety is something I have to live with for the rest of my life. I think it´s so brave of you to talk about it because we´re not alone and getting support regardless of who it comes from is so important.
Marianna says
Oh 🙁 I’m so sorry for you having to go through all that! But I’m sure overcoming that kind of things have made you stronger, and maybe appreciate life in a different way. ❤️ Sending so much love!
Natali says
Sending you many hugs and thumbs up once again for not being afraid to share and speak up!
https://lartoffashion.com
Marianna says
❤️
Yana says
Minnie is adorable. ❤️
Marianna says
She is!! ❤️
Mari says
All of your looks are perfect!!!! Your style and outfits are such inapiration to me. But stay strong wether you keep posting or not and I hope you get better. Because I really think you are the best blogger ever !!!! So again stay strong and all the best of the best to you!
Marianna says
Thank you so so much Mari. ❤️ You are the best.
Linda says
That looks soooo comfy! I love your lazy day look. I wish I was cuddled up with my dog having a lazy day!
xoxo,
Linda
boohoolindalieu.wordpress.com
Marianna says
Thank you Linda 🙂 Daily cuddles with Minnie is a must!
Kim says
Oh my goodness.. your pup! and that outfit looks so cozy!
Kim
http://trendkeeper.me .. Tip Tuesday – Cheap Flights!
Marianna says
Thank you so much Kim! x
Sarah says
Love your necklace!! Where did you buy it?
Love, Sarah
Marianna says
It’s from H&M, came with a chain choker 🙂 Thank you! x
Sarah says
Thank you!
Michael @ Mile in My Glasses says
I love the comfy outfit style, Marianna!
I hope you’ve had a great Tuesday!
Michael
https://www.mileinmyglasses.com
Marianna says
Thank you Michael! ?
Shannon says
Love the cosy outfit, especially the joggers.
And thank you for opening up in your previous posts. It’s so brave of you and also so kind of you to show other young girls girls going through the same thing that they’re not alone.
It’s amazing how you have such a supportive community through your blog!
SHANNON VALLE life + style blog
Marianna says
Thank you so much Shannon ❤️ And I’ve been thinking about the same thing, it’s so amazing I can’t even understand it!
Hannah says
If ever you come to sunny Southern California, let me know! My daughter and I would love to meet you and hug you in person. You are lovely, keep being you! PS – are you still looking for TV recommendations of shows? Since November I’ve been watching Reign finally, it’s pretty good. x.
Marianna says
Aw you are too kind ❤️ Thank you for these lovely words Hannah! And yes I actually am, I’m gonna remember Reign next time.
julia says
very cute look)) i like it!
https://twinklelittlstar.wordpress.com
Marianna says
Thank you! ❤️
Elena says
I love your lazy clothes haha still so cute and chic 🙂
I always felt depressed in my teen years and I didnt really know why, I got bullied for a while but still had my girlfriends by my side. I always wanted to go to therapy but I was too afraid to tell anyone about the way I felt. One day when I got my blood tested I found out I have an underactive thyroid (?), I am on meds since 5 years now, only the lowest dose, and I feel like a different person. Focusing on the things that really matter and make me truly happy helps a lot during “darker times”.
Its so important to speak more about mental illness, losing my uncle to suicide really opened my eyes, especially because I can imagine from my own experience how he must have felt.
Health isnt only about the physical part, your mind is also super important to take care of <3
Marianna says
Oh! We’ll see soon what the situation is with me. But by the symptoms it is sure possible. So happy to hear you found the cause and feel better now! But sorry for what you had to go through…
And I really agree with that. And I want to be a part of making the subject less tabu. Thank you for this comment Elena! <3
JO says
HI!
Im scared and aware how younger girls can feel depressed or anxious at such age, like they are growing by leaps being independent so fast and staying alone away from home. There is nothing wrong with that, sometimes is the price of success.
Try to see your friends more often, or call them in case you are feeling alone, trust me, it had happened to all of us.
On my mid 30´s life is running so fast, and trying to catch up is getting me anxious i try to focus on my own PACE, MY OWN GOALS, and what it makes ME happy. One day at a time. It is ok to do not run like mad doing 10 things one same day, if that keeps me mentally sane. Get yourself checked, speak up to any friend of family member. Health is 1st. and You are Number 1.
Esmee says
❤️ from The Netherlands!
Marianna says
❤❤❤
Yachy says
I know you have the Canon EOS 6D, but are these pictures taken with the original lens or is it another lens purchased?
Anonymous says
Isovanhempien labradorinnoutajan nenä oli muistaakseni talvella vaaleanpunainen ja kesällä musta 😀
Jemima says
Meidän koiralla, joka oli lhasa-apso, alkoi nenä muuttua muutaman vuoden iässä pinkiksi, se oli pysyvää, musta väri ei tullut enää takaisin, sitä jäi vähän reunoille. Ei liittynyt siis vuodenaikaan vaan muutos oli pysyvä. Söpö Minnie!
Yelena says
Thanks for sharing your struggles….. None of us have perfect lives or no problems at all. Social media tends to gloss over the bad and focus the perfect.
Have you checked your Vitamin D levels? Living in a northern climate too, in Canada, we don’t get enough sunshine October – April here. You may wish to take extra Vit D supplements to feel less sluggish.
Hope you had nice holidays in the sun!! ?